i am going through some motions these past few days and it feels like forever. rain seems to keep on pouring down real hard, it breaks my heart and my mind stops functioning. anyway, i'll just write about it another time.
but something about this day somehow lessens this whatever monster i am feeling. i gained a prayer partner.
in the middle of the busy schedule, i found myself creating an e-mail for someone whom i don't usually hang out with. most of the time, our conversation would be those normal hi and hellos when you see someone at the hallways. i was asking for a little favor, to pray for me. immediately, he popped a message offering his ears and a new year-treat, a coffee. :) right away i said yes. i needed that. so badly. it was just a thirty-minute talk but so heartwarming. i felt a little better after.
in the evening, i'm still preoccupied yet i tried to keep myself focused on stuffs. all of a sudden my chaos friends started pinging me, for some chit chats and to finalize our chaos two-year-planned-dream and finally it's happening! then another friend popped in fb telling me about our plans for KP and that it is happening soon as well! then there's P., whom i haven't had any conversations with for five months, i think, suddenly wants some catching up. haha. all the people i love at one night - it made me smile.
then i thought, although i'm kinda off-track this week, God never left me with nothing. He always makes me feel that there are still people around me who cares so much. that i should have given my attention to those people who matter and let go of those people who just makes you feel whatever.
thank You. :)
1.10.2012
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“I realized I wasn't going to find a man until I was willing to expose myself to possible harm, to assume the risks of rejection and betrayal and heartbreak that came along with caring about someone. Someday, I promised myself, I would be ready for that kind of risk.”
-Lisa Kleypas